♥♥ That's When I Love You ;;

•Thursday, September 28, 2006•11:15 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

fuck !! ( shift 12341234 ) !@#$!@#$
the whole damn entry disappeared,
so i shall kip it short for now.
damn.
random entry today.
there's a lack of variety in my life,
everyday seems predictable.

i've heard from someone today.
& i feel happy for him.
yeah, maybe.

i've been brooding over the same problems,
thinking of those moments,
pondering over the same questions.
am i deceiving myself ?

i can't say i love you, & i can't say i don't.

用心多了解我一点.
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anyway, how can i forget my dearest buddy's birthday !
HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY JEFFREY !
promise u a treat, i wun forget. ;)

was cam-whoring @ the saloon today.

if only i was that light-hearted, like the way i look in the pics.
but no, my heart is uneased.

to end this entry,

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off to shower.

Let's Love.

•Monday, September 25, 2006•12:04 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

ytd, i woke up thinking of qing.

he's morning call simply brightened up my day,

but that is only momentarily.

i wished i could feel this way, every other day.

sometimes, he can be so warm, yet he can be so cold.

it's slaughtering me slowly, excruciatingly.

tampines mall days.

1st pic - me & robin.

2nd, 3rd pic - me & edwin from x-craft.

4th, 5th pic - me & tony.

6th pic - tony & robin.

BAHHH, trip to kulai. stephiee & baobei, i look like a monster. look at my flat hair, so no volume. haa !

stephiee & sandra // to bugis.

was checking friendster..

and i received something which i find very hilarious.

here goes.. .. ..

LOADING llllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll40%

LOADING lllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll80%

LOADING lllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll100%

dated 22september'06

remember the old days?we usedto be such close frenz back in sec 2 n sec 3.

but sumting happened dat u n ur sisters start to hate me.

steph can u pls tell me truthfully wad happened dat time?

why let CCL ruin our frenship?

its been 4 years dun hate me anymore. pls reply n tell me wad happen can.

one more fren better den one more enemy. pls.

im still grateful for that time u n ur sisters helped me when i ran away frm home.

even if u all really hated me so much n dun wish to be frenz anymore its ok.

i just wan to know wad happened.

t hurts when ur sister said im a auntie n still as ugly as ever or called me bitch or wad.

i dun hate u all for anything.

i jus wan to know wad happened dat time. thanx

dated 23september'06

right steph dun bother to reply anymore.

i only wanna remain acquaintace wif u but since ur sis still hate me so much.

dun bother. pretend we never know each other.

n pls delete my testimonial from ur friendster.

goodbye n sorry if i ever offended u in the past.

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to whomever it may concern,

i wonder why u suddenly raised this whole issue up,

when no one mentioned anything bout it.

jus wanna let ya know, whats past is past.

i dun hold any grudges against u,

and i dun treat u as an enemy,

not in the past & definitely not now.

sighs. am back at whitesands already !

was over at tampines mall for the past 13days.

so kinda not used to it @ whitesands,

especially after renovation.

everything seems so alien-ated !

21sep - went to look for qing in the end. ;p

22sep - work & home.

23sep - work, swimming with wendy, steven, robin & tony @ tony's place.

24sep - work, dinner, home.

alright, nothing much for me to rattle about.

have been a good girl lately.

work. home. sleep. work. home. sleep.

so stereotyped.

ultimately, i still wanna say, stephiee miss qing.

Let's Love.

•Thursday, September 21, 2006•4:38 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

ytd was my dumb cousin's birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MELVIN !

baobei + edmund and co. to zouk.

darling & jasmine to momo.

xueli & co. to momo.

doy to sing k.

hougang bastard to movies & la kopi.

but i chose to stay at home.

initially wanted to meet qing,

but after receiving his sms decided not to.

wonder what's the crux of the problem.

i dunno what happened,

i dunno what went wrong,

but i know if it's only me caring bout this r/s,

how long more can we go on ?

if the feeling ain't there,

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总好过你不爱我一拖再拖.

but no, i haven't given up. not just yet.

我搞不懂,我们到底怎么了.

我想不透,我们的爱怎么了.

i'm on leave again, i need some time-out.

yet another day of staying-home-&-nothing-to-do.

BOO ! if only everything could be dismissed wif a smile.

i'm so paranoid.

i'm here without you baby.

Let's Love.

•Sunday, September 17, 2006•6:11 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i'm home,
w-h-y ? cus i didn't go to work.
haven't been to work for 3days this month.
that means deducting of 9days pay.
& when i get my pay, it goes back to square 1.. .. ..
NOTHING !
blame me for my laziness.

was really tired.
reached home around 8plus in the morning.
went to kulai instead of jb ytd night.
was hell ride there lo.
i swear i almost flew off ong lai's bike.
but was fun, cus i could release myself.
that train of thots always seems to be on my mind.
i can't help but to feel this way -- disgruntled.

i've got you, & i wan ya to make me feel stronger.
cus for you, i will.

feel like shouting !
people.. .. ..
hear me say WOOHAA.

Let's Love.

•Saturday, September 16, 2006•7:32 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i'm so vexed. dammit.

maybe our hearts will find their way.

so emo can !!

but i can't help it.

feel like breaking down.

i'm so lost in my thoughts.

one thing is -- we cannot compromise.

-- both of us are too stubborn for our own good.

please dun act like you care when u dun.

arghhhh ! feel like screaming.

alright, waiting for ong lai to pick me up & head to JB.

hope i'll feel better after coming out.

tsk tsk.

Let's Love.

•Thursday, September 14, 2006•3:28 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i'm so pissed off.
spent a few hours dl-ing songs to burn cd,
and damn i dunno y keep on error.
*&*&^#$#%$.

here's a pic of sarah,
bet u guys haven't heard bout her for long.
hair styled by robin & steven, so auntie-lookin.

alright, i jus came online to vent my anger.
I WAN MY CD !
so i can listen while @ work tml.
but it's getting late,

so.. okay, forget bout the whole damn cd issue.
guess i'm gonna hit the sheets,
after making sure that qing is alright.
BOO !

Let's Love.

•Wednesday, September 13, 2006•12:36 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

went over to qing's house ytd night.

am missing the times,

& am missing him when he is not here.

i wan him here & i wan it to stay that way forever.

i'm now beginning to dun like.. .. ..

me cry. (:'_':)

went home, showered,

went for dance class with sandra & baobei.

was so funny can.

but i'm feeling so tired i dun wanna elaborate.

my mood dampens when i tink,

oh work tml. grrr.

i feel so lethargic everytime i step into the house after work.

i would fall asleep,

& that means no time for qing.

enough whining stephiee !

okies, off to shower & maybe do facial mask.

den head to bed. good night world.

Let's Love.

•Saturday, September 09, 2006•11:05 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i'm feeling so jaded.. disillusioned..

was so moody @ work ytd cus i quarrelled wif the manager.
damn him, he shud die & rot in hell.
& poor robin, i vented my fustrations on him. ;p

stephiee & robin.

my forever cheeky baby ; me @ kbox.

was home, slept till 3am den,
met up with qing at kbox & they sang till 6am.
went to his house.
he's pissed at me again. damn.
i guess he is oblivious to my feelings.
it's ok, i'm alright.
numbed.

after work,
robin accompanied me back to hougang.
had dinner together.
den baobei joined us, chilled for awhile..
& am home alone on a saturday night.
how boring can it get ?
boohoohoo.

arghhhh ! i'm feeling very low.

i really dun wanna feel this way.

it's the things you say & do baby.

time is wad i wanted all along.

time alone tonight ?

GRRR.

Let's Love.

•Friday, September 08, 2006•12:05 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

YESTERDAY,
was at waiting bar.
with robin & co.

stephiee & david ; stephiee & weijie.

den to momo.
with xueli & co.

stephiee, shilin, xueli.

den to geylang lor 8 with qing.
& head home.

made a bet with qing that he would be late for work.
and look at the time he reached.. .. ..

damn, i lost. ^^v

quite surprised i wasn't late for work today.
but i was dozing off all the way.

stephiee & unknown little boy. ;p

snapping pics when everyone else was busy.
in the end,
i had to do OT.
BOO !

just received an sms from qing.

so sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet. ;)

my baby !

after his haircut ; i dun haf a pic of us together. GRRR.

LASTLY,
today is 8th of september.
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY MY DEAR.
i wan you to know,
even though i beat, kick, punch, bite,
shout & blah blah blah you,
i still love you,
<------------------------------------> much.

Let's Love.

•Tuesday, September 05, 2006•7:49 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

random entry today.
i'm pondering over some issues.

boohoohoo.
回忆总是美好的.

anyway,

it's my off day today,
and i haf been home the whole of today.
amazing.

80bar + geographer = monday night.
was wif my colleagues, sandra & baobei.
went home feeling sober.

lied on the bed & straight away fell asleep.

haven't seen qing for 3days ?
i'm already starting to miss my little baby. ;(
因为在乎, 所以害怕失去.

Let's Love.

•Sunday, September 03, 2006•4:12 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

am home from turntable.
was wif baobei, bui, sebas, irwin & bah gay.
was nice catching up & listening to their silly jokes.
these bunch of hougang guys. ;p

stephiee & robin ; stephiee & steven.
look @ my dipsomaniac face. boo !

headed for dinner,
den to carl's code with my colleagues ytd.
such fierce drinkers, they made me drunk,
& i made qing pissed.
i'm sorry baby, for not listening to you.

i feel so so bad.

it seems like the level of understanding is always there,
you're pushing me out when i wanted in. ;(
there's a reason to continue -- Y0u&I.

it's the way you make me feel baby.

oh yah, i might be going for a trial dance class tml,
with baobei & sandra.
actually we haf signed up for dance classes,
starting next tuesday.
it's just for recreation. ;)

with love.. .. ..

Let's Love.

•Friday, September 01, 2006•3:00 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

just came out from the shower.

sighs, it's 3am now but still dun hear my hp ringing.

'm waiting for a sms from qing.. .. ..

ladies night @ momo ytd was crazy.

bet sandra did haf fun.

we drink & drank but did not get drunk. ;p

went to qing's house after that.

i dun feel good. ;(

y are we always like that ? ignoring, arguing wif each other ?

does the probem lie in me ?

was it all a sign of what it's meant to be ?

baby,

whisper words of love right into my ear.

alright, here comes his sms.

offline now !

Let's Love.