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Let's Love.

k, so i stayed up and received his text around 7am this morning.

usual routine, wake up, work & home.

work was B O R I N G. like always. boo.

i'm so not used to it, when he's not around.

since we're always together,

it's not easy to feel the many partings.

Let's Love.

how cute. ^^v

i woke up feeling very anxious.

anxious cus qing is gonna go for his overseas training,

today.

i got changed, put on make up

& waited for qing to wake up so that i could buy dinner over to his place.

i thot i knew that this pig would wake up late,

& wouldn't have time for dinner,

but i was so wrong. grrr.

ok, so off i went to compasspoint with *e***,

for dinner.

was nice meeting up with him,

heartening to know,

yes, he's here to listen to my troubles.

i feel comfortable with him. ;)

ok, so qing's hp is off.

guess he's on the plane now,

i feel so far away from him.

distance apart but heart to heart -

i hope so. ;x

i can't sleep w/o knowing if he has reached taiwan safely.

for the past two days,

my mind was like whirlwind.

i kept thinking & thinking of certain things till i swear,

i could go on a temper tantrum - physically.

i could break down any moment.

Take 1

Take 2

i got ugly nose & pardon my teeth. haa.

wad am i supposed to do now ?

am i supposed to head to bed ?

or am i supposed to wait for qing's sms,

telling me he's fine.

i'm worried. boo.

Let's Love.

i miss somebody so badly. . .



this is all i haf to keep me company for now. ;(

Let's Love.

i'm free, so decided to blog cus of request from vinci -
to post his pics up. haha.
've got a few, but am lazy to resize.
so, one pic only ! lol.

vinci & melvin - my dumb cousin.

hmm, actually i'm at qing's house.
that lazy ass is sleeping.
he'll be heading to momo later,
whereas for me, i dunno. (-___- '')

his precious baby - the monkey, not me ! (:"_":).

some random pics of me.

work has been tiring recently.
i think i'm getting bored of it.
luckily i have this bitch who's there to accompany me.

darling ; stephiee ; stephiee ; darling. ^^v

not forgetting one of the other witress which i get along pretty well with,

ah mei.

anyway, qing will be away for reservice.

i'm so gonna miss him.

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww.

he is gonna kill me when he sees this pic.

his new haircut. short & smart. ;)

to end dis post,
lotsa love,

stephiee.

Let's Love.

i haven't been home for the past -

1, 2, 3, 4 days or so.

i kinda miss my bed.

we went for sushi just now, i love i love !

^^v.

i deserved ! ;x

cus we quarrelled & he made me cry.

i fuss over small issues.

& i feel, it isn't good.

am at qing's house waiting for him to be home.

hafta open the door for him, again !

but i'm very obliged to. haa.

you guys must be wondering what the hell are we doing.

together ? not together ? together again ?

not together again ?

i think i need not elaborate on this.

i've got nothing to do,

so went to look at qing's rotting blog.

i say it's rotting cus he haven't blogged in like -

5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 years or so.

he doesn't plan to blog anymore, anyway.

i look back & smile,

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''But at there one more things that came into my life...

A Girl, Name Si Ti Fen Ni....

Well....I'll just hope it work out fine for us.

And is just ain't like what happen before...

I'm really kind of tired of it..

Everythings seem to be quite fine for us at the moment...

Hope things will remain this way....

P.S:

I'm sorry if i had treat u coldly today...

I really ain't got the mood to sms.

And sorry to kept u waiting for my sms,

even when you are so beat.''

''There she was lying beside me...

But i was giving her cold shoulder..

Ignoring her....Reason was?

She know it best....

So after so much time wasted...

Decided to get bath and head out..

Wanted to bring her for dinner.

But she say she want to head home...

Suggest to send her home.

She decline to it...

Hence i headed down to Bugis after she boarded the cab...''

''Finally by the end of the day...

Feeling relax and happy..

But who know's?

Someone just mess it up...S

he was DRUNK!!!

Or should i say Farking High On Alcohol!!!!

I farking sure that this aint the first time yea..

And i did told you umpteen time before...DID I?

Why can you just listen?

Totally mess it up man..Geez....''

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yours truly,

stephiee.

Let's Love.

was woken up by the sound of the hairdryer,
sound from the tv &
my sisters talking.
was quite puntual for work today.
i din wanna stay at home,
i wanted time alone.
i wanted to cry all i want,
but i hate it when my sisters keep barging in,
and out of my bedroom.
it's embarassing.

this is to someone who's very dear to me.
qing, if you get to see this,
i hope you'll remember me as the girl,
whom you see in your eyes.
a few lines from the song "luther vandross - i'd rather",
that i like very much.

i'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else.
i'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself.
i'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart.
i'd rather have the one who holds my heart.. yeah.
i found this one thing is true,
that i'm nothing without you.
i know better now.

there's so much i wanna say to you.
but i really don't know how to put it down in words.
just know that you're always in my thoughts,
and that i love you.

让我把爱化成最美最美的 - 回忆.

Let's Love.

dear diary,

this time round, it hurts the most.

so much so,
i really need someone to turn to but i dunno who.
it feels so bad and it's driving me crazy.

some nights i lie in bed and i wonder,
how long i'm gonna remain in this line.
how long i'll take to get what i want.
e.g. carry on studying, class 3 license, etc.
it's almost overwhelming thinking of such things.

but tonight, all i wan is to close my eyes n fall asleep.
i can't.
whenever i close my eyes,
i'll see his face.
& i keep hearing his voice.
am i turning insane ?
the worst thing is, from tml onwards,
or should i say when i wake up later,
i'll be facing a new chapter in my life.
all alone.
i hate being so dependent on him.
i really hate this feeling.

he said he wanted to play.

the thing is he's 26.

this i cannot understand lah.

not that there shouldn't be fun in life.

there is. but what's the point of the fun in life,

when it's just temporary?

i am just a girl who needs attention.
hoping someone would understand & truly care.
someone who will always be there.
try putting yourself in my shoes,
if u think it hurts, den probably it hurts me too.
yes, i'm very very down.

i'm gonna think more & more of me,
& less and less of you.
at least one thing i'm glad about -
i know the tears aren't forever.

i wanna smile ! ;)

love,

stephiee.

Let's Love.

i'm intoxicated with alcohol.

today - did'nt treat me okay.

if u get what i mean. darn.

just ytd i was announcing to the whole wide world,

" 8 more days - 7th month with qing.

if we are able to celebrate our birthdays together,

which both falls in july,

one more month to a year. "

i was expecting more to come.

and it just took one day to tear us apart.

nothing much for me to elaborate.

nothing more for me to say.

well, nothing lasts forever.

at 12am, i was already very exhausted.

exhausted of holding my tears back while i was working.

i did.

i feel tired but i can't sleep.

sometimes, i want it all.

a scintillating social life - i'm not there yet.

fantastic academic results - i know i can't get it.

rewarding & stable relationship - i thot i had but no !

and maybe, just maybe, sheet-grabbingly great sex - ok i'm just kidding.
i think i think too much.

i feel so awful.

i wanna lie in bed curled up like a prawn,

& cry myself to sleep.

Let's Love.