♥♥ That's When I Love You ;;

•Saturday, August 30, 2008•1:47 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

sandra's laptop bluetooth is like so damn irritating.

i so wanted to blog (it's friday, 1st time i'm home waiting for qing !)

but it's either her laptop couldnt receive the photos,

or my hp would hang.

-pictures come in here-

today's a special friday,

cus i feel so lazy so decided for chill out session at grapevine,

instead of le bar for "intensive drinking".

i feel so sleepy after two mugs of beer.

i was there with sarah & darling.

however, sarah kept complaining she's sleepy, so spoil mood.

intended to head to bliss to continue chilling,

but sarah didn't wanna come along & i didn't like the idea of walking home alone after that.

she spoil mood again.

whatever !

oh yah, i love the bbq shitake mushrooms at grapevine,

they say it's shitake mushrooms but i think they are those black mushrooms.

got cheated lor but still i love them. :p

-pictures come in here-

finally received these photos which were taken quite sometime back.

if i could i wanna ride on it again,

provided someone else pays.

i love thrills !

even though i feel afraid,

i'll still tell myself at least try once. hehe.

i'm gonna sleep, and if qing does call,

it all depends if the vibrations of the phone can shake me up.

he's been coming to pick me very very late these few days.

how does it feel if u were sleeping,

and hafta get up halfway (cus he picks me up to his home) and sleep again ?

i hate this vicious cycle,

and somehow or another, i'm beginning to feel sick & tired.

i haven't felt like these in previous r/s(s).

it's not like i get to sleep late into the afternoon the next day everyday.

i think he feels that we spend alot of time together, but i think otherwise.

at the rate we are communicating with each other,

i wonder how we came this far.

it must be because i am already used to him. i'm used to him.

yeah i'm used to him.

Let's Love.

•Tuesday, August 26, 2008•8:59 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

had a mini party in my room yesterday night with 1/4 of the hougang peeps.
everyone was pretty drunk except those who were driving,
and i only realised today that the amount of noise pollution we made kept my poor mum up.
chivas and vodka sure don't make up a good pair.

pardon my dress (i had it since primary 4 !),
no eyebrows, my messy hair and my naked face !

i was chatting with ah bui yesterday & i realised it's been 7years that we have known one another.
haha, what luck to have u as my neighbour !

as usual, the bad attitude that always possesses me under alcohol came.
i was demanding qing to come my place and stay over,
although he did offer to pick me over to his place, i refused.
i just wanted things to go my way,
and he being such a sweetie came over lah although he was fuming mad,
i wouldn't care.
when he woke up he straight away went home lor,
i know he's still angry.
even now.. angry.

to mr teo:
hehe, i'm sorry baby !
i know you will still love me. ;p

Let's Love.

•Monday, August 25, 2008•7:12 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

my khakis went for the 5days AIMS course,
so from today till friday, i'll have to report in the office alone.
i hate being alone so badly.
luckily, ron was free to meet up with me for lunch today if not i would have skipped lunch lor.
i always have this feeling that when i'm alone,
everyone else is staring at me even though i know they are actually not.
i have asked sarah about this before and she shares exactly the same sentiments as me.

sarah & sandra might be going drinking later,
but i decided to stay home.
after 2-3days of staying out late,
it's time for a break.

prawning on wednesday with sandra, sarah, michael, kenny & hopefully darling and janice.
there better not be a change of plans.
hehe.. i cant wait !

whole load of overdued pictures of my colleagues turned friends. ;)

alot more photos, but im lazy to upload, resize and all.

Let's Love.

•Saturday, August 16, 2008•9:26 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

Random photos at le bar.

i am cooped up in the shoebox with nothing to do,

i feel so lethargic although i slept till 6pm today.

qing has gone to settle some work stuff & i'm waiting for him to have dinner together.

i'm always waiting.. waiting.. and waiting for him.

somehow, i feel this is so meaningless.

am i suppose to continue like this for the rest of my life ?

i'm done with my make up, i'm ready to go out,

but he hasn't rang me up yet.

it is always like this ! he always ask me to get ready & never gives me a time.

like i know what time he'll be done

so it's always me waiting like a ~~bloody~~ idiot for him.

i hate it, hate it so much !

wonder how much longer can i tolerate.

darling has said that my heart grew bigger already,

like when she says 'what if qing drives pass got girl sitting in his car ?'

i told her so ? i don't care already, anyway he is always driving his colleagues, frens & whatsoever around.

and she said 'last time you not like that one leh, u always ask me go momo cus you wanna spot check on him.'

haha, it's so ironical that when i wanna hold on so much to this relationship,

it turns out otherwise.

all i want is a place in his affections & the devotion in this relationship.

i don't want to feel used.

Let's Love.

•Wednesday, August 13, 2008•2:19 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i dread waking up at 7am everyday,
when i'm awake,
i do not feel reluctant to doll up & get myself to the office.
but i'm always looking forward to 6pm,
when i get to knock off. ;)
why is it so ? weird.

ever since i have been in a relationship,
i have given up my social life,
even those i just got to know,
i gave up the chance of getting to know each other better,
which means i gave up the chance of being friends.
and when i say friends, i don't mean weather friends.

life for me has changed drastically.
did i forget to mention that 4 of us has left le bar ?
i'm officially out of nightlife,
however you can visit my twin sisters & darling at district bar next week.
still, tuesdays are set aside for binge drinking with whoever !
i wonder how life will be just shuttling from home (qing's house) to work,
back to my home and wait till 1am... 2am... 3am... till qing fetches me back to his house.
so mundane !
it's tiring waiting for him every night.
i hate his job already,
it's taking up so much of his time & the pay isn't fantastic.
i know it's not my job, but i hate to wait up for him every now and then.
what should i do ?

Let's Love.

•Friday, August 01, 2008•3:47 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i keep putting blogging off although at times i really really feel like blogging.
reason being, i'm lazy !

i don't know if i'm walking towards the right direction,
i just walked into a door that has been opened for me.
so uncertain, but i'm willing to give it a try & if it doesn't work out,
i shall try another job.
it was my first day in the office yesterday & luckily,
there were 2other people - first day also.
3 of us went lunch together. phew, i hate being alone.
anybody working near tanjong pagar area wanna have lunch with me,
ring me up on my mobile, i would be most willing ! ;)

i have to adjust my habitual clock, imagine me waking up at 7am ?
i still haf schedules at le bar lor,
and i'm trying real hard to get someone to replace me.

have been going to central to look for sarah for dinner almost everyday.
sarah didn't know how to order off the counters of subway,
so i taught her how to one day.
amazingly, i love subway.. can never get sick eating it
although i only put ham, cheese, lettuce and cucumber.
EAT FRESH ! hehehe.

oh ya, i caught money not enough 2 with qing & peeps from swift club.
it was way better then part 1,
i rate it 4/5 popcorns. salty ones please !

qing and i brought his little brother for sakae sushi dinner,
and the way treat him damn nice lor,
not like how he treats me.
i wonder if this is the kind of treatment his kids will get in future. hahaha.
earlier at his mum's place, she gave me 2 brand new bags, 3 pairs of falsies, 2 eyelash glues, 5 brow pencils.
i was so paiseh lorrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

heading back for my movie marathon.

Let's Love.