♥♥ That's When I Love You ;;

•Tuesday, April 29, 2008•12:56 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

strawberries i love ! ;)

luckily i brought a sheet of mask home,
thus am masking while waiting for qing to pick me up.
samantha just made a bowl of honey stars with milk for me,
her pocket-sized sister and i'm having lotsa difficulties eating,
cus of my mask.
i was soooooooooo bored just now,
and was surfing around aimlessly online.
i dunno how i happened to appear at everydayminerals.com,
and i started ordering my makeup kits.
it's strongly recommended by sandra thus i really hope it's good.
i can't wait for it to come.

the weather's a killer.
it's not only hot n humid in the day but also in the night.
i could just perspire by sitting on the couch watching tv.
the hot weather's making me get agitated easily. grrr.

oh, i'm going back to watch tv.

Let's Love.

•Thursday, April 24, 2008•2:05 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i skipped the trip to jb all cus of my deariee cousin marissa.
sarah & i picked marissa up at her home & we drove to parkway.
marissa wanted to get shirts for anthony from G2000,
but we ended up shopping and i spent more den half of my pay away. ;p
i just felt like spending money.
had wanted to get shirts for qing from G2000 too,
but their variety was soooooo little i think qing has almost all of the shirts there,
except for the solid color ones.
luckily i have no time to iron his shirts cus of school,
if not i think i can die. lol.

had kidney mee sua for dinner, so heavenly can !
it's the kind whereby once you start eating, you can't stop.
so as expected, i finished the whole bowl. ;)
and after sucha heavy dinner,
we went back to marissa's house to understand more about accounting.
oh, we threw our assignment paper at her,
and yay, it's done and also with very good explanation from her,
i think i understand 2% of accounting stuffs.
however, she still cannot balance out the balance sheet. hahaha.
lucky me, while she was doing it i couldn't tahan already i went to take a nap.

was woken up half an hour later and we decided to head to beach cabana for cocktails.
their cocktails were horrible and expensive.
should have gone to balcony instead - i so love their sex on the beach.
someday maybe. . .

my unglam pics,
with melvin's, "show ur teeth show ur teeth."
thus i had to cover the mouth area,
cus i have really ugly teeth.
had to post with pictures because i myself find entries w/o pictures boring.
i hate taking pics with spectacles cus it cuts off my eyes.

qing just came back from jb with my favourite bbq hotdogs & chicken wings.
i say it's his plot to make me grow fat. ;p
but he says tht since i didn't go with him he "wun forget abt me want wad.''
so what say you ?
sweeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeet !
i love my bf.

Let's Love.

•Wednesday, April 23, 2008•4:01 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

it's nice being able to blog while qing is surfing around the net too.
if not i guess i'll be feeling so restless and staring at the ceiling right now. ;)
i fell asleep right after dinner while i was at home just now.
woke up at 1am and did mask and watched a little bit of television programme,
something i haven't been able to do most of the days cus of my uptight schedule.

headed to vivocity after school today,
specially for forever21.
sarah's idea, cus we had no clothes to wear already,
though our wardrobes are overflowing with un-worn clothes.

sarah's admirer rented a car for her since saturday,
and the 3 of us have been taking turns to drive.
i drove to pick sandra up from school yesterday,
and i turned round and round the expressways to get to woodlands from my school.
damn sickening cus sarah and sandra are road idiots too.
i fetched mummy home from her workplace from vivocity,
we had difficulty figuring the way there although most of you guys already figured the route to bugis.
anyway, it's our plot to psycho mummy to get a car for us,
even though we already knew it was a no no.

once again, the dates for submissions of assignments are getting near,
i gotta put in more effort this term !
sarah and i have been super duper slack in class,
and we know it, but cannot help it. heh heh heh.
talking bout school, there's these group of girls who gets on my nerves.
i don't understand how people probably the age of 19 to 20 years,
can stoop to low level acts of immaturity.
i was never like this at that age. i feel sad for them. ;p

i'll be going jb tml for food. yumyum.
qing's been going in once a week,
however i decide to tag along with him only once in alternate weeks,
cus i'm on a mission - let qing grow fatter den me !
(qing's gonna laugh at me when he sees this lor but heck!)
qing never gives compliments,
he always calls me fat - fat pig, fatty, fat fat, whatever. grrr.
the other day when he left the house for work,
he still said my face very round and chubby,
but luckily he said it in a very cute way. ;)

oh and did i mention tht marissa's back ?
i'll be going to her house with sarah tml so she can teach us accounting.
we're gonna be so dead because we don't even know the basics,
not even the formats.
however, with tight schedule for school and work,
and with marissa leaving on saturday,
any kind soul wanna teach us accounts ?
H-E-L-P-!

time to snuggle up in the blankets with qing.
sweet dreams & good night.

Let's Love.

•Sunday, April 20, 2008•6:22 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

had ajisen for dinner den headed to peipei's house for mahjong.

it's been quite awhile since i last mahjong-ed.

i still have leftover time from my last prawning session lor,

and i'm wondering when my dearest bf will bring me there again. ;p

why izzit when i have class the next day,

qing will be up all night using the com ?

why izzit on weekends, qing will say he's tired when it's like only 2 in the morning ?

i'm not talking about today.

this is what has been going on for weeks.

i'm beginning to dread weekends.

i don't need time spent with qing and his friends.

i need time for two of us alone.

our daily routine would be leading our own lives,

and den he come and pick me up to go home at night.

won't it be nice if we could meet for a simple lumch or dinner ?

we've been having cold wars recently, although it does not last more den a day.

i find it funny how me and qing can just throw a tantrum,

even at the stupidest reasons.

i'm losing my position. i'm of no importance.

his job is more important.

his car is more important.

his friends are more important.

his laptop is more important.

even the soft toy monkeys are more important.

i've taken this relationship to the next level and agree to live with qing -

the person i'm giving up my independence and my solitude,

putting all my effort into making it work and hoping for the best.

it's like high stakes poker, if not dealt with the hand i had expected,

i wouldn't be allowed to get up and move to another table.

i've been dealt with a hand full of low cards at the moment. (ok at least to my point of view)

and i hope my luck changes, because in gambling, luck changes all the time.

i'm betting everything i have -- my heart, my future.

nonetheless i love u lah teo ***qing !

it's just that i feel a little disappointed & unhappy. grrr.

Let's Love.

•Monday, April 14, 2008•3:17 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i tried cooking qing's favourite food lor - the ham & bacon omelette.

the one from oh cafe !

and mine.

seriously, it tastes almost as good as oh cafe's omelette.

it just doesnt look appetizing enough because it's on a yellow plate.

wahahaha.

hahaha, i'm munching away on qing's ovaltine biscuits.
he's gonna call me fat pig & sulk cus he's left with one packet. ;)
i've been eating alot recently and growing sideways.
qing too !

ytd was at downtown east for class chalet,
and the variety of food very poor thing lor, only chicken wings, hotdogs, crabsticks & corn.
however, quantity wise was alot !
after eating, played cards and had a few drinks before an idiot suggested going to the red house.
i didn't wanna be a spoil sport so i tagged along.
the gate damn difficult to climb lah.
what freaked me out is the video that darling took while we were inside,
& the photos one of my classmates took.
i keep thinking bout what we saw in these medias and i still feel scared,
especially when i hafta shower. grrr.
luckily qing offered to fetch me home,
if not i would have waited until morning before i wanna go home.

qing & i headed out in the evening to meet his friends for dinner,
and he got poisoned by his frens to get the dopie slippers/sandals/whatever.
they look like this !

funny looking right ? and funny colour too.
they all decided their colours by following the colour of their car.
can tell which is mine feet ? lol, i feel like i'm wearing flippers.
i wouldn't want everyone staring at my feet while i walk.
after dinner we headed to 1degree 15 to chill at one of his frens yacht.
was a simple day out, and because i have a lousy camera phone i couldn't take any pics.

he likes to act cute !

my bangladeshi baby ! love ya many many. ;)

i'm going to sleep now.

i'll have to wake up in time for kway chap bf's last journey. ;(

love love.

Let's Love.

•Friday, April 11, 2008•4:41 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i feel very very sad.

i don't understand why he had to leave at such a young age.

this post is dedicated to my beloved friend ben aka kway chap (my bf !),

who has left mine /our world so suddenly.

sandra, sarah, darling & myself got to know this lovable guy from melody valley II (our previous workplace),

and it's fate that allowed us to be friends.

this guy, has done too many things for us,

such as standing up for us when we're bullied,

drinking for us when we already hit our limits,

throwing sushi parties at the pub,

fetching us home in the wee hours of night,

comforting us when we're sad,

cheering us up when we're in a bad mood,

and encouraging in our studies & taking our driving license.

i remember his cheery smile.

i remembered the last time me & sarah visited him in the hospital,

he looked so weak after his medication,

and was struggling to keep himself awake even though the effect of the medication already kicked in.

i remembered how he joked and said he was hospitalised right after the day sarah texted him to ask if he was fine (i asked sarah to text him one ;( ).

i remembered darling telling him tht 4 of us would visit him together soon,

i remembered sandra texting him to ask if he was alright (he still replied saying he'll be okay soon & that he'll bring us out to eat).

i remembered the fun times at melody valley II (the silly games we created, e.g. bird bird, the songs we sang, the jokes we played and even the drinks we drank).

and i'll always remember those times.

dearest bf ! although you're gone,

you'll be kept in our hearts, etched in our memories.

remember love love ?

we'll really really miss ya, especially your smile.

sarah, darling & myself went to his wake earlier.

we went straight after work bacause we'll be busy in the next few days,

but nevertheless, i hope 4 of us will make ourselves free on monday morning to send him off on his last journey.

P/S : pictures will be uploaded asap. i need to upload them.

Let's Love.

•Tuesday, April 08, 2008•2:28 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i just did ear candling,

i hope it'll give me a good night's sleep & energy for school tml.

qing's doing it now. lol.

he looks funny playing psp with the ear candle stuck in his ear.

HAPPY 20TH MONTH DEAREST.

at least i help you do ear candling ok !

am gonna continue with my gel eye mask later.

nitey nite world.

Let's Love.

•Monday, April 07, 2008•6:22 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

self-proclaimed holiday today.
today's subject is accounting & i don't understand anything.
i didn't take accounting in secondary school & i know nuts even though i listen in class.
boohoohoo.

yesterday, qing & i went into jb with his friends for shopping,

but neither me nor qing bought anything.

had a terrible terrible headache thus i kept sleeping (even when i was in his car.).

dumb dumb baby took a photo of me while i'm sleeping !

so horrible can, lucky i saw it and had it deleted.

here's revenge !

i actually just took this,

which means he's sleeping beside me while i'm typing this !

i just went down to get food for him cus he complaint that he was hungry the moment he stepped into the room.

you see, that's what i mean by he's soooooooooo lazy can !

he was outside and hungry but din buy any food to eat.

just like a little baby, i dunno why i love so much ? ;x

but anway i still love u many many what, *** zhiqing !

(he say i cannot call him by full name, cus it's rude.)

the 8th, which is tml will mark our 20th month together.

no special surprises,

cus i wanna save up for his birthday, which is in july.

on a random note, i think i wanna sell qing's boxers.

i mean un-worn one's.

the other time we came back from bangkok he bought like 200-300 boxers,

and he has worn only a few of them.

it's taking up too much space in the room !

hahaha. okok anot baby ?

Let's Love.

•Sunday, April 06, 2008•2:03 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i woke up when qing was preparing to go out,
and he wanted to sneak out without giving me a kiss.
luckily, i was on time to catch him. haha.

qing came back to fetch me around 6pm,
and he told me he needed to help his driver deliver the alcohol to 2locations.
i've already gotten use to sitting in his car,while he goes to locations after locations to collect payments.
(i could sit in the car for damn bloody 2hours !)
however, today's delivering turned out to be a blessing in disguise.
teeheehee.
because when we reached, the pubs were'nt open yet,
so we went for dinner. just the two of us !
we haven't been going out in a pair for a long time already,
even when was the last time i cannot remember lor !
i only remember how we used to go to the nearby market to eat together. ;)

we had this at oh cafe !

it's just cheese, bacon and ham omelette.

qing claims it's his favourite food,

and he kept making funny expressions on his face to show it's really good.

i think i can make this omelette also lor.

i'm going home one day and try to cook this.

after delivering the alcohol,

we headed to east coast for greybear's birthday bbq,

and came home only now.

i'm gonna shower and exfoiliate, do eye mask den face mask, den eye gel mask.

i realised after applying the st ives eye stress gel and using the eye gel mask,

the area around my eyes becomes better visibly,

as in not so dark and puffy.

Let's Love.

•Thursday, April 03, 2008•3:31 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i've received my online good buys already,

and i'm feeling so excited.

they are false eyelashes and face masks(anti-acne & bird nest), and eye masks.

i love these items alot because i think they're really good,

and i can't wait to use them.

i've school tml and i've just got home from work.

oh gosh, i dunno how the ~~hell~~ i'm gonna get to school ready for my morning class.

anyway this semester's really really bad.

i dislike the subjects and i know nuts about it.

this is already the 3rd week of the new semester and i'm beginning to get worried.

qing has been very very dependent on me (till sometimes i feel i'm his maid instead of gf. ;x).

everything's been good except that he is too lazy for his own good.

i feel that i'm of no importance to him,

and i'm around him, just so that he could feel my existence.

i stress many times of why i'm thinking this way,

which i still couldn't reach a conclusion -

that i'm feeling this way because my expectations are getting higher as i mature.

gosh, we've been having the minimal-est of the minimal-est of textes & calls,

and the minimal-est of the minimal-est of hugs & kisses.

i'm gonna complain here another time,

cus he's out from the shower,

which means my turn to shower.

i wouldn't wanna continue ranting with a pair of eyes fixated on me.

teeheehee.

Let's Love.