♥♥ That's When I Love You ;;

•Thursday, November 29, 2007•6:35 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

qing took this.

i woke up slightly before hearing someone knock on the room door.

i opened the door,

and to my surprise it was qing.

humph ! never buy lunch for me.

anyway i snapped this photo while he was busy on the phone.

i knew he wouldn't be looking at the camera so i looked away too. ;)

pardon my looks. like what i said,

i just woke up not too long ago.

off to prepare for work.

i seem like i haven't work for a long time already.

Let's Love.

•Wednesday, November 28, 2007•11:36 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

am masking now.

i just did my spa salt scrub in shower, i loveeeeeeeee it.

i need to get my body butter soon.

it was an annoying day for me, today !
i hate cab-snatchers.
and i dislike cab drivers that don't wanna fetch,
when they have no passengers at all.
it was raining almost the whole of today.
i waited almost an hour under the drizzle,
only for allowing the stupid lady cab-snatcher,
to comment on what a fool i am,
laughing her ass off, when she snatched my cab away.
i took a bus home in the end.
the journey was not that long,
but there was this idiot that kept pressing the bell at every stop.
and at the bus stops, no one alights.
sucha nuisance in public.
grrr, the people on the bus already packed like sardines in a can lor.

i got home and had a quick shower and headed to lorong3's G7.
had dinner with sarah, samantha, marissa and anthony.
it was anthony's treat, so we had a spread.
ok lah, considered a spread besides the norm of any other day's dinner.
i recommended the mango fish,
it tasted so heavenly, i think it was everyone's favourite,
apart from the frog leg's, steam prawns, sambal kangkong and their 'zhao pai tofu'.
my tummy is bulging now,
i think the food i ate are having a party inside. ;)

i have two pathetic photos from marissa's birthday.

the tequila shots. i think we only had 2rounds of it, plus beer and chivas.

cheers ! happy 21st bithday bitchhhhhhh !
my turn next year. ;)

then pictures of yesterday's post birthday bbq !
the bbq was just for fun, with the usuals - 10people attending only.
we started quite late, like around 10plus.
just gossiping, gossiping, gossiping and reminisce-ing (i dunno how to spell, haha !) the good old days.

the food, so poor thing so little.
but we didn't manage finishing it,
even though most of the food were given to the stray cats.

me and marissa bbq-ing.
actually we each took turns to bbq,
so that at least got some contribution instead of eat eat eat only.
there's one guilty of it though - darling. hahaha !

the two cranky ones.

our booze, which we drank maybe 1/4 from each bottle only.
no one had the mood to drink.

when we all got bored we decided to compete who could 'tahan' longer,

with water melted from ice and ice cubes in the ice box.

all so dumb. ya, me dumb dumb too. ;p

sandra won in the end !

we headed home around 2am.

i didn't go to the beach with marissa ytd.

we used to lie flat on the shore,

and talk bout funny things to make us laugh.

but we always end up crying,

because in our minds and hearts,

we were thinking bout another thing.

alright, am gonna be a good girl today.

nothing is gonna infleunce me from stepping outta the house.

i'm gonna wait for my baby baby to be home.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm......

Let's Love.

•Tuesday, November 27, 2007•7:53 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

jiejie and me on the way to zijie's house for mahjong on sunday.

qing was sneakily taking photos behind my back,

till i turned around and posed for him to take.

i used jiejie's head to cover my ~~no make up~~ugly face. ;)

i finally had my garlic mushroom teppanyaki.

so yummy, i yearn for it again !

anyway, marissa's back from australia.

we celebrated her 21st birthday at studio 8teen ytd.

from what was supposed to be a happy occasion,

everything else went otherwise.

the pointing of fingers, the shoutings, the pushings.

i really wonder what are friends for ?

and who do i really call my friends ?

i guess everyone's wearing a mask on their faces.

i came home looking for comfort,

and found qing looking so worried.

was surprised he wasn't angry,

instead we had a talk,

and he said he didn't wanna lose me.

i sometime wonder if the things he says,

is because he feels that i'm gonna turn my back and walk away soon.

well, i won't if qing proves me i'm wrong,

about being happier without him.

GRRR.

baby, i know i still love you. ;)

Let's Love.

•Wednesday, November 21, 2007•6:32 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

just for laughs.
i just received this photo from adam.
it was taken during the monsoon hairshow @ dragonfly.
i think i stand so awkwardly on stage.
hahahahaha.

yesterday, i had sakae sushi with mummy sarah & samantha at kovan's branch.
i brought jiejie along and she seems to have enjoyed the meal too. ;p
peektures.

and ice-cream.
i haven't eaten ice-cream for ages.
samantha said it was yummy.
she's always like this when she wanna buys something,
and it's food, she would always tell mummy,
"buy this buy this i try before. very nice.''
LOL.

today i woke up feeling something wasn't right.
yes my sixth sense was right.
i actually forgot i had driving lesson at 430pm.
i rushed like mad, only to reach the school at 5pm.
it wouldn't be nice to the instructor,
to book a lesson and cancel it on the day itself.
after lesson went to smith street with sarah,
for ma-la steamboat.
i hate the service there and it's kinda expensive.
i don't know why 'we' like to torture ourselves when it comes to eating.
'we' includes sarah, sandra, darling and myself.
haha, only they will know what i mean.

here's one fifth of the photos i received from trix,
taken at studio 8teen.

i don't know whats with the 'twist'.

Let's Love.

•Tuesday, November 20, 2007•7:08 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i am so weak.
i never have enough of crying.
i hate pretending that i'm happy.
everytime qing asks me "why am i always showing him a black face ?''
what can i answer him ?
i will just say ''nothing.''
because i really don't wanna talk about it.
i want my happiness.
i search for comfort.
i run far and wide,
and keep ending up into the same deep dark hole just like before.

i know he's trying to stabilize he's job,
but does that mean,
not even a text message from him the whole day till i text him.
he can just simply reply ''i'm busy.''
it just goes to show how important i am to him.
i don't talk to he's friends.
why ? 'because i always don't get what they are talking about.
i have to figure everything by myself about what the heck they are talking.

i hate it when i'm crying, i'll have to laugh after that.

because i don't want my friends to be worried.
i hate it when he shows attitude when he's the unreasonable one.
i hate it when i talk to qing,
and he can't even be bothered to answer me.
i hate it when he plays he's psp.
i hate myself.

everything he does is right and everything i do is wrong !
even when i try to do things just to please him.
i get nothing out of it.

whatever i do, i place him first.
i have a hundred mixed emotions in me,
i don't know how to put them in words.
i'm sucha heartless bitch.

i've tried to tolerate everything bad about him,
but i realised that if i continue tolerating,
i'll be at the losing end.
i have been asking myself,
AM I REALLY HAPPY BEING WITH HIM ?
gosh, no one knows how many tears i've cried.

i came back to his house today,
even though he said i could go home and give ~~this relationsip~~ US some serious thots.
i missed my baby,
heres a picture of her, to cheer myself up. ;)

Let's Love.

•Friday, November 16, 2007•7:27 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i came home around 4am ytd only to find qing not home yet.

i was worried and rung him up immediately.

he told me he was on the way home,

thus i headed to the toilet for my shower.

when i was done showering,

he wasn't home yet.

it got me really mad.

i guess i understand how he feels when i'm home late every other night,

or maybe he doesn't even give a damn.

stupid yi cai was chasing me with vanilla's bag of puke ytd.

i havent been able to curb this phobia of mine.

really weird, i was so frightened i didn't know to laugh or to cry.

LOL.

on a really random note,

qing was looking so dressed up and handsome for work today.

he better not hook up any girls. ;x

Let's Love.

•Thursday, November 15, 2007•7:45 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i love my hair extensions.

i love long hair,

ever since i watched the taiwan serial "tokyo juliet".

haha, i'm just bored and i'm gonna be late for work.

because sarah just started putting her make up,

and i'm waiting for her to come over and fetch me.

feel so bad lately,

cus everytime i come home in the wee hours of the night,

i never fail to wake qing up.

with the noise i make, with the lights on,

with the gibberish language i speak,

and even at times, with my sobbings.

then he'll only catch a few hours of sleep before heading for work.

even with my nonsense, my unreasonable attitude the night before,

he never fails to peck me on the lips or forehead before he leaves home.

to me a kiss on the lips means 'i love you',

and a kiss on the forehead means 'i wanna be with you forever',

if there is forever.

okay, i'm typing rubbish.

because i'm sooooooooooooooooo bored.

i'm so hungry.

a hungry woman is an angry woman !

Let's Love.

•Wednesday, November 14, 2007•3:58 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i woke up late for my driving lesson today,
so i decided to give it a miss.
headed to city plaza to look for sarah and darling,
who were doing their hair extensions.
i got my hair extensions done yesterday.
my hair is black and long now. ;)
had dinner at pepper lunch,
and it was goooooooooooood.
it was my first time dining there because i don't like peppery food,
but sarah suggested trying it out.
it's surprising because i quite like it.
i went home after that,
and mummy kept nagging at me to consider moving home.

went prawning aftermath, with sarah and baobei.
they are first timers and i practically have to do everything for them.
ok lah, not everything,
just cutting and putting the baits on.
usually qing would do all these for me. grrr.

don't know whats wrong with me these few days.

i hate it when it's late at night.
loneliness always manages to seep in,
and my emotions go on a roller coaster ride.
i've talked to qing,
and hopefully knocked some sense into his head -
to understand i want he's attention. ;x
i'm jealous of couples i see on the streets,
jealous of people's blogs,
where they go on non-stop bout the sweet things their partner has done for them.
i'm jealous, because i wanna be like them.
i want my relationship to be like them.
sometimes i just wonder. . .
how he can bear to treat cute little me like this.
maybe it's expectations ?
maybe it's stress ?
or is it a routine ?
or is it just me ?
ok i think i think too much. hee.

i want to get back on the right side of the scale.
time for dieting !
because when i say right side of the scale means,
i just slip on a spaghetti strap and shorts and leave the house.

Let's Love.

•Sunday, November 11, 2007•6:08 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i saw qing's little tummy when he was trying to smell he's feet ! ;x
darling commented that he has double chin already.
i hope he grows fat so,
he would stop complaining that i'm fat. ;)

Let's Love.

•Saturday, November 10, 2007•5:00 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i realised the title i put on most of my posts,
is bored or boring.
i seriously can't think of any other titles for my post,
because my day is really really boring.

i'm feeling really dehydrated now,
from all the alcohol.
work is BORING today.
the crowd was okay and i practically had NO reserved tables.
which means the crowd today was nobody i knew.
okay, i knew like 3tables of them only.
totally not in the mood to work today,
so i was practically lazing my ass of in the bar,
playing pool or outside smoking.
till i knew i could leave the uninviting place for home.
i smiled - wide, very widely. ;)
i don't know why,
but studio had this big invisible sign hanging outide it's door today -
'boring atmosphere, do not step in.'
grrr.

qing is playing his psp now.
i hate it so much,
because when i have time with him,
his time is with the psp.
if only psp's never existed ! boo.
i hope we can have dinner at wisma's foodcourt tml before i head for work.
i so yearn for my garlic mushroom teppanyaki,
but he says he's working tml.
humph humph humph !

randomly, i found this on the net.
and it really made me think back on my primary school days.
for those born in the 80's.
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You grew up watching He-man, MASK, Transformers, Silver Hawk and Mickey Mouse, Ninja turtles, Carebears, Robocop, My Little Pony and Smurfs.

You grew up brushing your teeth with a mug in Primary school during recess time. You would squat by a drain with all your classmates beside you, and brush your teeth with a coloured mug.

You hated or loved the school nurse (she was either pretty or mean).

You know what SBC stands for.You paid 40 cents for cartons of Chocolate or Strawberry milk every week in class.

SBS buses used to be non-airconditioned. The bus seats are made of wood and the cushionwere red. The big red bell gave a loud BEEP! when pressed. There were still bus tickets and bus conductors would come up to check them.

Envelopes were given to us to donate to Sharity Elephant every Children's Day.

You've probably read Young Generation magazine.You know who's Vinny the little vampire and Acai the constable.

You know what PETS are and the hidden animals in all the text pages. You hated penmanship.Writing lines and caning hands were common, esp if you failed chinese spelling (caning was actually allowed. no shit).

You were there when they first introduced the MRT here. You went for the first ride with your parents and you would kneel on the seat to see the scenery.

Movie tickets used to cost only $3.50.

Gals were fascinated by Strawberry Short Cake and Barbie Dolls.You learn to laugh like The Count in Sesame Street.

You bought tidbits called beebee (20 cents per pack, 10 cents in MGS), and mamee (30 cents), that had a different sticker in it every time.

You carried a lunch box to school but either threw away the food or brought it back home again.

Hardy Boys, Nancy Drew, The Three Investigators, Famous Five and Secret Seven were probably the thickeststory books you thought you would ever read.

KFC used to be a high class restaurant that served food in plates and had metal forks and knives. (I dont remember this, anyone?)

The most vulgar thing you said was asshole and idiot and THE MOST EXTREME WAS 'chicken pie'...you just couldn't bring yourself to say the hokkien translation.

Catching and pepsi-cola was the IN thing, and twist was the magic word.

Your English workbooks were made of some damn poor quality paper that was smooth and yellow.

The only computer lessons in school involved funny pixellized characters in 16 colours walking about trying to teach you math.

Waterbottles were slung around your neck and a must everywhere you went.

Boys loved to play soccer with small stones or tennis balls in the basketball court.Girls played five stones and boys played with marbles.

Science was fun with the Balsam and the Angsana being the most important plants of our lives, guppies and swordtail being the most important fishes.

Who can forget Ahmad, Bala, Sumei and John, immortalized in our minds from school textbooks.

We conducted experiments of our own to get badges for being a Young Zoologist/Botanist etc.

Every Children's day and National day you either got pins or pens with 'Happy Children's Day 1993' or useless plastic files with 'Happy National Day 1994'.

You wore BM2000, BATA, or Pallas shoes.

Your form teacher taught you Maths, Science and English.

You went to school in slippers and a raincoat when it rained, and you find a dry spot in the schoolto sit down, dry your feet, and wear your dry and warm socks and shoes.

There would be spelling tests and mental sums to do almost everyday (you hated them).

Your friends considered you lucky and rich if your parents gave you $2 or more for pocket mone everyday.

You saw Wee Kim Wee's face in the school hall.

Boys liked catching fighting spiders, earthworms or tadpoles.Collecting and battling erasers was a pastime for boys.

Class monitors and prefects loved to say, "You talk somemore, I write your name ah!"

There were at least 40 people in one class.

You brought every single book to school, even though there was a timetable.

There was a pro-yo/bumblebee, digimon craze at some point in time.

GRRR, i would love to continue but teo zhiqing is on the bed already.
so i'll end abruptly.
night night.

Let's Love.

•Friday, November 09, 2007•3:29 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

it's the 8th !

happy 15months baby !

though i know i irritate you alot,

and sometimes you make me feel like vomitting blood,

i still love you - truckloads.

2things i cannot wait for this month !
18th november, out sea fishing with qing and friends,
and 27th november for marissa's birthday bbq !
i miss this bitchy cousin of mine ! pisa pisa ~
when you're back from australia this time round,
i promise, we'll have loads of fun.

on a really random note,
friends say they prefer me with red hair.
but i prefer it black, the way it is now. ;)

Let's Love.

•Wednesday, November 07, 2007•2:51 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

studio 8teen was like a ghost town today.

customers only came in around 12am.

and we closed around 2am !

i didn't drink much today.

all because qing called me and told me not to drink so much.

you hear me ? you hear me ?

that's what he said.

yes i hear you baby.

i know i annoy you at times when i'm high on alcohol.

like yesterday, i was atrociously ridiculous.

i came home from work, and made a din.

was crying my eyeballs out till i fell asleep,

and i knew when i was sleeping,

you haven't fell back into slumber. grrr.

but it's nice before you left for work.

you planted a kiss sooooooooooo sweet on my lips,

and said don't cry anymore uh,

while stroking my hair. ;)

teeheehee. ^^v

ok, i guess it's what female hormones are doing to me.

it's gonne be the time of the month and thus,

i get so emotional at night,

especially when i'm alone.

Let's Love.

•Tuesday, November 06, 2007•7:21 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i've got sometime on my hands to blog now,

before i head to studio8teen for work.

i'm glad i get to see mummy more often now.

all thanks to driving lessons.

after driving lessons, i'll always head home,

and it's a must to have dinner with mummy. ;)

will be heading to hougang mall's twister to get my hair dyed black tml,

with the companionship of sarah & monsoon's vouchers.

by thursday, i'm all prepared to go for interviews.

today's only tuesday.

i realised that i'm always looking forward to sundays.

because, thats the only day i get to spend with qing.

Let's Love.