baby and me at changi airport.

weeeeee, the trip to bangkok with qing was superb.
somehow, it was kind of amazing,
and it was a real eye-opener for me.
intended to go there for a week,
but ended up extending 2more days.



hello thailand ! the view taken from the aeroplane.

the view from our hotel room.

we stayed at the twin towers hotel.
nice room settings - the way the furniture is placed,

and even the lightings.

it makes me feel just like being at home.

the bonus was, only me and baby occupied the whole house. ;)

donuts is a must have.

look at baby munching away while tv-ing.

the only luggage we brought along with us ; and dis was what we came back with.

the winnie the pooh china bag was so huge,

even qing had difficulty carrying.

everyday was shopping, shopping and more shopping.

go figure how much stuffs we bought. ;p

we've been to most of bangkok's major shopping centres,

night markets, discos, 'dirty' pubs and even high class giggolo pubs.

my only regret was, not buying the necklace i likeeee so much,

and not trying out the fried maggots there.

qing said they taste like prawn crackers.

look at the colourful taxis around.

what i dun like is the rain.

it was practically either raining or drizzling everyday.

and i so hate the traffic jams. everyday, anytime !

so whenever theres a traffic jam,

we'll hop onto a tuk tuk, which is faster den a taxi cus it can take shortcuts.

and.............

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on the tuk tuk.

and............

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us on the tuk tuk, pardon my tired cum retard face. haa.

random photos taken while in the taxis,

and in the hotel room.

this versus. . .

this !
was taken on the day i tried so hard to wake qing up in the morning.

in the end, i fell asleep too !

me and qing's dipsomaniac faces !

on the 8th, we were back at the hotel quite early.

thus, we do what we always do in the room -

watch channel 33, disney channel and i dozed off.

qing woke me up slightly after 12,

and asked me to shower as he had prepared bubble bath for me.

he hugged me from behind and wished me happy birthday.

i love i love.

i seriously forgotten tht it was my birthday. haa.

the most memorable night was 9th of july !

my birthday.

qing's mum brought us, including her frens for seafood dinner,

after which we headed to a giggolo pub.

we played games till both of us were (almost there).

den qing said he was bored and wanted to go home.

however, qing's mum brought us to another giggolo pub.

qing was saying, you get one giggolo laaaaa. i pay for you !

of cus it was no way for me. haa.

went back to the hotel and slept almost half of the afternoon away.

next day before hollywood awards.

the woman in black is his mum. ;)

i guess i'll end bangkok's entry here.

it's been awhile.

the memory's still there and it will be always.

not forgetting my so-dope sisters and lovely friends,

who celebrated my birthday with me at spyder on 3rd of july.

qing came down cus i forced him too,

but he still came down anyway, so sweet right ?

heres a few pictures.

the five of us, it's been a long while seeing 5together.

the birthday cake from my cute mummy.

*this entry belongs to 15july 2007; 4:30am.

Let's Love.

qing was helping me d/l new fonts for his photoshop cs,
cus i was nagging that his fonts are boring. ;p


anyway, a quick review for..
hmm, maybe the past 2days ?
was over at cck (qing's mummy's house) on tuesday,
after work. stayed over.
left the house in the evening and went for dinner with baba&mouse.
you see, he was so mean.
we ordered quite alot of food,
and poor me was forced to finish everything -
if i wanted to go prawning.
but i didn't finish the food.
baby drove home and when we were downstairs,
he passed me the keys and said byebye.
so i went back to his house fuming mad,
and i broke down.
of cus, he was joking.
but i dislike it so much, whenever he gangs up with his frens to bully me.
just because i'm shy and i keep quiet doesn't mean i can take it.
it was a small joke, but i dunno why -
maybe, just maybe,
because of the way he treated me in the past,
i get so emotional easily,
even when he just raises his voice at me.
this isn't like me in the past.
i feel that he's so ignorant towards my feelings.
only comforting me whenever i cry.
it was so heartwarming when he hugged me ytd.
i dun wanna buy that.
i wanna be like this.

because baby, i wanna be the reason for your smiles.


i helped qing pack his room today.
i was doing 20% of the cleaning and he was doing 80% of it.
it was so tiring, and i can imagine how my poor mummy,
manages to do all the household chores alone.
i need to put in some effort to help her out next time. ;)
had macdonald's for dinner before gg to work.
i'm glad i abstained from alcohol today.
the thing that cheered me up today was baby,
when he opened the door from me.
he goes, 'faster, faster !' and passes me the keys.
then he ran back into the room,
and was sitting in front of the computer watching his movie like a little kid.
i like this kind off together-ness.
it makes me feel so comfortable. ;)


i bought this pjs from bangkok.
qing choosed it. ;)



p/s : i have started blogging bout my bangkok trip since the 15th,
but am lazy to finish it up.
someone please knock me hard.. .. ..
because i think i shouldn't be that lazy !

Let's Love.

i am halfway through blogging my itinery in bangkok down.


i feel so intoxicated with alcohol,
but not to the extend that i'm drunk.
i just came home from midnight curry rice.
(it's located somewhere along hougang and kovan.)
i hate the food so much,
so much so that whenever i eat it,
i'll feel like puking.
however, their loyal customer sarah says it's not bad.
yucks, to her sense of taste.
that explains why not even 1/4 of my plate is touched. ;p


i woke up and headed to work today.
i've just started working at a new pub named carls code,
located along telok ayer street.
that place is still okay,
IF i am working with either sandra, sarah or darling.
if not, i don't enjoy working there.
not at all, but for money's sake.


headed to double o after work to look for sarah & the rest,
cus it was eileen's first day of after confinement period.
but who knows, they got into a fight.
so i was waiting for them like a fool.
till someone suggested to go to dragonfly,
to avoid the police and stuffs.
we reached there around 5,
it was so amazing that even a place like dragonfly could flood because of the heavy rain.
darling was playing around like an idiot, i swear.
but was fun catching up with the rest cus qing seldom goes out with my frens.
so these while,
time with them was scarse.


am home now but qing ain't answering my calls.
am hoping & praying that he's sleeping already but my sixth sense tells me no.
for the past few days,
all these while,
he'll be busy playing games & sleep after i fall asleep.
i feel something so precious being misplaced.
he won't talk to me when i talk to him.
and out of no reason,
i just feel that he's angry with me.
no hugs, no sweet kisses, nothing.
nothing at all.
i hope this love ain't gone.
my heart feels so heavy,
and i do. . .
have this very strong urge to cry. ;(
teach me, which is the right way to love you,
how can i keep you by my side ?
i guess, this will never be in your mind.
it is so difficult to make a decision,
to love you or not.
this hurts.

Let's Love.

Let's Love.

the monkey is my baby,

i adopted her from mustafa & i love hugging her. ;)

woke up around 4pm,

had dinner at the market near his house.

den went back to his house again cus i was wearing the wrong clothes.

ain't suitable for wearing to mono @ d/f,

i didn't wanna feel left out.

however, his house no nice nice clothes for me to wear. ;(

this big boy always makes me feel so inferior,

he likes calling me "APT",

which means short and fat. go figure !

you see how mean he can be ?

anyway, we reached the place at around 11pm.

cut cake and drank.

was quite enjoyable looking at qing celebrating with his frens.

frens - are one thing i don't have in life. ;(

i didn't drink alot.

ok, i drank very little today,

but still, quarrelled with qing,

he left w/o me.

so you see, it's him who's short-tempered. ;x

it's not the infleunce of alcohol that made me flare up.

i'm just disappointed tht qing didn't get to enjoy his day.

i'm angry, with myself for spoiling everything.

i hate myself so much today.

anyway, things are fine between us now.

we are unbreakable now, and i wan it to remain this way.

hope it'll be a better day when i wake up later.

lastly my precious,

i promise tht there wun be a next time.

i won't force you to do things you dun want to.

happy birthday && iloveyou.

am looking forward to 5th to go thailand with you. ;p

Let's Love.