i am halfway through blogging my itinery in bangkok down.


i feel so intoxicated with alcohol,
but not to the extend that i'm drunk.
i just came home from midnight curry rice.
(it's located somewhere along hougang and kovan.)
i hate the food so much,
so much so that whenever i eat it,
i'll feel like puking.
however, their loyal customer sarah says it's not bad.
yucks, to her sense of taste.
that explains why not even 1/4 of my plate is touched. ;p


i woke up and headed to work today.
i've just started working at a new pub named carls code,
located along telok ayer street.
that place is still okay,
IF i am working with either sandra, sarah or darling.
if not, i don't enjoy working there.
not at all, but for money's sake.


headed to double o after work to look for sarah & the rest,
cus it was eileen's first day of after confinement period.
but who knows, they got into a fight.
so i was waiting for them like a fool.
till someone suggested to go to dragonfly,
to avoid the police and stuffs.
we reached there around 5,
it was so amazing that even a place like dragonfly could flood because of the heavy rain.
darling was playing around like an idiot, i swear.
but was fun catching up with the rest cus qing seldom goes out with my frens.
so these while,
time with them was scarse.


am home now but qing ain't answering my calls.
am hoping & praying that he's sleeping already but my sixth sense tells me no.
for the past few days,
all these while,
he'll be busy playing games & sleep after i fall asleep.
i feel something so precious being misplaced.
he won't talk to me when i talk to him.
and out of no reason,
i just feel that he's angry with me.
no hugs, no sweet kisses, nothing.
nothing at all.
i hope this love ain't gone.
my heart feels so heavy,
and i do. . .
have this very strong urge to cry. ;(
teach me, which is the right way to love you,
how can i keep you by my side ?
i guess, this will never be in your mind.
it is so difficult to make a decision,
to love you or not.
this hurts.

Let's Love.