♥♥ That's When I Love You ;;

•Monday, August 06, 2007•1:41 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

i can't get to sleep.

however, qing's snoring like a bullet train already.

he has merely laid down on the bed for 20mins ?

that leaves me being all alone again.

we went for mahjong session earlier on,

straight after he knocked off from work.

i understand he's had a hard day,

since he only had a few hours of sleep the day before.

i haven't been a good girl.

i haven't been home,

but i've always seen my sisters at work.

i miss my home and of cus my mummy.

my mummy cus in everything family comes first.

in this hour, i've got nothing to do.

my ~~bloody~~ mind keeps pondering over issues i think i shouldn't be thinking about.

but i can't help it.

perhaps i'm more emotional in the wee hours.

it's so hard not to have negative feelings bugging me.

i feel like a helpless little kid drowning in the big sea.

i feel something in this r/s is gone. serious !

what's gone ? i don't know but am trying to figure. ;(

i can't talk it out with him,

because somehow or another,

i feel he doesn't like talking to me.

it's funny why he'll ask me why i am asking him this and that.

it's because i wanna know la, if not i won't even bother.

can't even ask how's he's day,

but i'll eventually know because he'll tell his friends.

i always think that at the end of a hard day's work,

he might want to share, to relieve stress but no,

that person is not me.

i'm always the last to know bout how he's fareing for the day.

in 2days time, it would be our 1year anniversary.

am looking forward to it,

maybe just a simple dinner if time permits.

this journey was loving in the beginning,

became torturous and was 'happy ever after ?'.

i'm glad i persevered since the beginning,

and am happy to see qing make some slight changes for me.

but but,

i miss the honeymoon period,

i miss the deliciously sweet passionate kisses.

i miss the heart throbbing touches.

i want the affectionate hugs,

not the non-affectionate hugs of comfort. (meaning i cry den u hug.)

i want to make it out of the twines thats dangled at my limbs.

i want you to be the one that really cares.

i want to be right, that i'll be happier with you.

i want to make everyday my best day, so i won't live in vain.

i feel like eating my curry chicken maggie mee.

i'm not hungry ! i just feel like eating.

should i eat and hang around the laptop cus i cant sleep,

or should i just try and sleep,

wake up and go out with qing ?

Let's Love.