what i believe, what i do and how i behave,
has a massive effect on what i call love success.
i want to get out there, have a decent job,
and pursue my dreams.
i guess, love success is the cherry on a cake.
not all relationships run smoothly.
i don't want to fall into traps of thinking things would be easy,
because i absolutely adore, respect and admire that person -
( i'm talking about qing respectively. )
this would lead to disaster and doom.
i don't want this relationship to be in tatters or near it.
who wants and need all those pressure ?
i don't want an acrimonious break up,
a longer period of recovery,
and often bitterness and regret.
ok, i believe we can still work things out.
therefore, i've gotta start likeing myself,
and not doubt his love.



i dyed my hair and had a haircut at monsoon's academy ytd.
i incredibly spent 7hours, or maybe more there.
time includes waiting, bleaching, bleaching again,
dye color 1, highlight color 2, highlight color 3,
back to color 1 then 2 then 3,
color 1 then 2 then 3,
color 1 then 2 then 3 again,
followed by haircut.
am so not used to it, because my hair is so red,
and my fringe is so short.

don't get a shock. this is adam's styling.
so exploded i look like aunty,
i don't like the make up cus it doesn't suit me.
makes me look so wild.
but i love the way my eyes are drawn. ;)
it's nice to get this kinda exposure.
at least i'll know how to groom myself for whatever occasion in the future.
however, i guess i'll be too lazy to do anything to my hair,
except for leaving it straight.


i'm so exhausted.
but to end this entry,
happy birthday to my cousin melvin,
who is finally only 18.

me and sarah, with drunkard melvin !

good night world,

i'm gonna bum around on the bed,

with qing already sleeping.

i feel like we're strangers.

he hasn't replied my sms-es the whole of today.

love brings sadness and misery into life,

but without love, life seems so weird.

qing,

i may be unreasonable, cranky and irratable.

but that's because i already feel so comfortable with you by my side.

sometimes, we hafta move out of our comfort zone.

i wished that you'll always be that sweet to me.

nevertheless, i still love you baby.

Let's Love.