♥♥ That's When I Love You ;;

•Thursday, March 20, 2008•6:01 PM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

it's funny how me & sarah missed morning class today for self-proclaimed sleep.
i woke up late and texted sarah and who knows,
she didn't hear her alarm too and was still sleeping. haa.
i can't get to sleep these few days.
at night i'll toss and turn in bed,
and start thinking of things, sometimes even with my mind blank.
sometimes i'll be dreaming already but in fact i have been awake.
(what is this called ? the half asleep half awake state ?)
i so hate it cause i can't get sufficient rest.

I don't know if i'm feeling paranoid lately,
or it's because of the phases i'm going through in life -
the moving of bloody goalpost-es aiming for the best be it academically or career wise,
that i've started again to ponder on my dependence on qing.
i'm uncertain if it's still LOVE between us,
and i wouldn't want this love to shift it's weight, become different and unrecognizable.
it has become a daily routine to wake up and head our different ways,
with him coming to pick me home wherever i am.
then he will start surfing the net and neglecting me to do my own stuffs,
like staring at the ceiling. grrr.
i probably am thinking this way cus i need attention or i have matured.
i don't even understand myself.
if i told YOU that you are my priority,
would u say i'm only your option ?
i miss the hugs and kisses.

well, all i want to do now is to complete my course and start thinking about the jobs i wanna take up - cosmetic or hotel line and i'm even considering on FAs side.

Let's Love.