♥♥ That's When I Love You ;;

•Sunday, April 20, 2008•6:22 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

had ajisen for dinner den headed to peipei's house for mahjong.

it's been quite awhile since i last mahjong-ed.

i still have leftover time from my last prawning session lor,

and i'm wondering when my dearest bf will bring me there again. ;p

why izzit when i have class the next day,

qing will be up all night using the com ?

why izzit on weekends, qing will say he's tired when it's like only 2 in the morning ?

i'm not talking about today.

this is what has been going on for weeks.

i'm beginning to dread weekends.

i don't need time spent with qing and his friends.

i need time for two of us alone.

our daily routine would be leading our own lives,

and den he come and pick me up to go home at night.

won't it be nice if we could meet for a simple lumch or dinner ?

we've been having cold wars recently, although it does not last more den a day.

i find it funny how me and qing can just throw a tantrum,

even at the stupidest reasons.

i'm losing my position. i'm of no importance.

his job is more important.

his car is more important.

his friends are more important.

his laptop is more important.

even the soft toy monkeys are more important.

i've taken this relationship to the next level and agree to live with qing -

the person i'm giving up my independence and my solitude,

putting all my effort into making it work and hoping for the best.

it's like high stakes poker, if not dealt with the hand i had expected,

i wouldn't be allowed to get up and move to another table.

i've been dealt with a hand full of low cards at the moment. (ok at least to my point of view)

and i hope my luck changes, because in gambling, luck changes all the time.

i'm betting everything i have -- my heart, my future.

nonetheless i love u lah teo ***qing !

it's just that i feel a little disappointed & unhappy. grrr.

Let's Love.