♥♥ That's When I Love You ;;

•Tuesday, December 16, 2008•2:45 AM Y

fitted together, like two halves of a heart.

shopping in town with sarah & samantha.
when we start preparing early,
we tend to think that we have all the time in the world,
and so we always reach our 'destination' later then what was planned.
when we start preparing late,
we will end up reaching our 'destination' even later.
we didnt visit all the shops that was in mind,
and i hate this kind of feeling.
i brought home 2paper bags only.
i'm gonna allocate one full day soon,
whereby we get to shop all day.

i extracted this from lunnie's blog,
which i find it so true and meaningful.
consider a performer on a trapeze.
she swings back and forth, and then she encounters another trapeze bar.
it is swinging towards her and it is empty.
now she has a decision to make.
she may continue to hang onto her present bar, or let go and grasp the new one.
but she can't do both!
she can't hang onto the old and grasp the new with her other hand.
she HAS to decide which she wants.
if she chooses to let go of the past and grasp the future, she finds herself suspended for a moment in mid-air.
scary! it's too late to go back and she has not yet latched onto the other bar.
she is vulnerable and at risk.
but she has decided to take that risk in order to move forward.
life is like that.
sometimes you have let go of something if you want to latch onto something else.

apparantly, i am not someone who will voice out what i feel,
be it if i'm happy or angry.
not even to my sisters although at times i complain to them,
a deeper meaning lies behind.
i am not one who will turn to my boyfriend and asks if he loves me,
and neither will i say anything in times when we quarrel.
there is this fear, a fear in me.
somehow, i can feel that qing and i have distanced.
because of work, because of character changes,
bcause of friends, because of whatever, i don't know.
all i know is that there's a barrier in between us,
a barrier which cannot be seen but felt.
how sad.

Let's Love.